I had always known that I was a
Christian. I was not saved until I heard a song by FFH on November 16, 2003,
When I recited there prayer of salvation. I was brought up in the church. I did
not actually become a hardcore Christian until 2005. I was baptized by
immersion on April 10th, 2005. On I was hanging out with the wrong crowd. I
have begun to say no to the temptations that the enemy is sending towards me. I
also said to God all I want to do is serve him. I surrendered him. I went to
the one thing Conference in Kansas City and realized that it was a confirmation
that I am to be a church planter. I don’t when or where but God will revile
that to me someday.
I received a great blessing from going
to the one thing Conference in Kansas City. I use to listen to country music
only. Since 2005 I only listen to Christian music. I grew up in the church. But
for some reason I think we were just playing church. Over the past three years
I have discovered the lord. How great he is. A girl I was dating in high school
she and I would go to church together on a regular basis. I did not know until
I attended the one thing conference in Kansas City that God is lovesick over
us.
There are so many pressures on us that
the world is putting on us. I do not like the fact that there are people in the
United States trying to force their agenda on us. It makes me sick. But
prophecies from the bible are being fulfilled every day. I felt a calling to go
to Kansas City and it was a blessing. I also feel that I am being called back
to Kansas City to do an internship there. I had never heard of IHOP until a
fellow Christian in my life group asked me if I wanted to go to Kansas City for
the IHOP Conference. I loved IHOP so much that I will do anything to go back. I
also feel the training that I will receive will help me grow in Christ even
more.
There was one of the speakers there that
spoke right into my heart. I love god and I know that god loves me and gives us
trials to see how great our faith in him really his. I had gone on a church
retreat in March of 2006 and that is where I first learned that I was supposed
to be a minister. Then when I went to IHOP. That was a confirmation that I
needed to pursue ministry. I told god in a prayer that all I want to do is
serve him. I also discovered that I need to read my bible more. My favorite
scripture is from Isaiah 40:31 NLT
But those who trust in the Lord will
find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like
eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint.
Before 2005 I was hanging out with the
wrong people and drinking. I would listen to all kinds of music and then in
2005 with the help of a friend from my church in Lubbock. I began listening to
David Phelps and Toby Mac. Now all I listen to is Christian music. I can thank
god that he changed the music that I listen to. God has changed me in a radical
way and I praise him for it. I have several different scriptures memorized but
I need to memorize some more I think that I will start memorizing Romans 8.
Rom 8:1 There is therefore now no
condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Rom 8:2 For the law of the Spirit of
life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death.
Rom
8:3 For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By
sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned
sin in the flesh,
Rom
8:4 in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in
us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
Rom
8:5 For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of
the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the
things of the Spirit.
Rom
8:6 To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is
life and peace.
This
means that we are not in condemnation for we belong to Christ. For our sin
Christ died on the cross for us. We are not worthy because of our flesh we can
let our flesh get the way of our fellowship of God. I know I did. I confess my
sins daily. I also that through God all things are possible. I let the enemy in
and started attacking me because of hurt that happened in my past. The first
was the fact that a male cousin on my mom's side took advantage of me at a very
young age and took away my innocence. Then when I was twelve years old my
parents got a divorce. I let the enemy attack that and also tell me that it was
my step mother's fault. But that was a lie from the enemy that I was healed
from during the John 8:32 weekend at Beltway. I am fully and 100% healed from
those wounds and I am on fire for God and all I want to do is serve him. I am
God's Favorite and I know that he loves being around me even though I had ran
from him from 2001- 2003. I felt the Holy Spirit come in and tell me that I
needed to be in church. So I started looking and I found a great little church
in Stamford called Trinity Baptist Church. I became a member there. Then when I
got my current Job with the Texas Department of Criminal Justice. I moved to
Lubbock, Texas in January of 2005 where I started going to Southcrest Baptist
Church and became a member there in March of 2005. Then I felt a call to go to
Family Harvest Church. I fell in love with that church and in March of 2006. I
got filled with the Holy Spirit. I was refilled with the Holy Spirit on April
1st, 2010 at the 2010 Dangerous Men's Advance. I have been involved with Youth
through the Texas Brigades. It breaks my heart that we are letting our youth
down by not sharing the Word of God with them like we should.
I
rebelled against God while working at TDCJ by experimenting in homosexuality
and dressing as a drag queen. I hit rock bottom in 2011 when I screwed up and
lost a great job at the Robertson Unit in Abilene, Texas. I was blessed in 2012
when I got a job at the Rolling Plains Regional Jail and Detention Center. I
was blessed in 2013 when I got promoted to the rank of Sergeant. In July of
2013 I received the greatest blessing of all when I met the love of my life and
we were married on June 21st of 2014. In January of 2014 my wife was
blessed by going on a walk to Emmaus. In March of 2014 I was blessed as well by
going on a walk to Emmaus. Satan took us to rock bottom again at beginning of
2015 when I was tempted and cheated on my wife. We were okay until December of
2015 when I found out that my wife had cheated on me. I was letting Satan beat
me up by bringing up the subject of divorce.
I have struggled with gender identity issues off an on since 2016 after my divorce from ex. I now feel that the Holy spirit calling me back to be the man that God made me. I Love God and Jesus Christ.
11/16/03 “this is the day that I gave my
heart to Jesus”
